{"id":2455,"date":"2021-10-24T20:25:41","date_gmt":"2021-10-25T01:25:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/wordpress\/autisticme\/?p=2455"},"modified":"2023-11-26T16:27:08","modified_gmt":"2023-11-26T22:27:08","slug":"seeing-my-fragile-self","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/2021\/10\/24\/seeing-my-fragile-self\/","title":{"rendered":"Seeing My Fragile Self"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Overnight Wednesday my left eye\u2019s cornea suffered a tear or abrasion. It was a surprise. An extremely painful surprise.<\/p>\n<p>Unfortunately, I am familiar with the pain. In 2008 and 2009, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/wordpress\/autisticme\/2008\/10\/14\/vision-and-pain\/\">I suffered several corneal tears in Minnesota\u2019s cold, dry weather<\/a>. It\u2019s a pain you do not forget.<\/p>\n<p>For the last dozen years, I\u2019ve been using sterile eye drops throughout the day. Admittedly, I likely forgot the drop Wednesday night after dealing with two hyperactive children all day. My mind was foggy, at best.<\/p>\n<p>As soon as I could focus, I sent a message to our medical clinic because eye issues can be serious with diabetes. Even if I assumed it was cornea tear, I wasn\u2019t going to take any chances.\u00a0By Friday afternoon, I was with the ophthalmologist. She examined my eyes and decided to use a contact lens as a bandage.<\/p>\n<p>Late Saturday, I was in extreme pain again. Something was wrong. My vision went blurry.<\/p>\n<p>I woke up about 4 a.m. on Sunday. It felt like something was scraping my eye yet again. This time, however, it was the contact lens. It had torn in half and a portion was stuck to my upper eyelid.<\/p>\n<p>The mere thought of touching my eyes causes extreme anxiety. I couldn\u2019t do it, not even to remove the pieces of the contact.<\/p>\n<p>Using Refresh Tears, I flushed the left eye repeatedly until the contact halves were both below my eye so I could retrieve them.<\/p>\n<p>When I had\u00a0corneal abrasions in Minneapolis, I actually passed out from the pain. It\u2019s that severe. That\u2019s why I try to never forget the eye drops!<\/p>\n<p>Pennsylvania\u2019s moist air was good for my vision. The winter wasn\u2019t as dry as Minnesota\u2019s and the summers were mild.\u00a0Moving to Central Texas, which is also humid, I assumed my eyes would be fine. I continued to use eye drops, but I didn\u2019t worry about dry air.<\/p>\n<p>Yet, here I am.\u00a0Monday, I\u2019ll call the eye center and find out what the next step is after the contact lens.<\/p>\n<p>I still remember the series of medical emergencies in Minnesota. Those were difficult years and I don\u2019t want to repeat them.<\/p>\n<p>Eyes are fragile and I do my best to care for mine.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Overnight Wednesday my left eye\u2019s cornea suffered a tear or abrasion. It was a surprise. An extremely painful surprise. Unfortunately, I am familiar with the pain. In 2008 and 2009, I suffered several corneal tears in Minnesota\u2019s cold, dry weather. It\u2019s a pain you do not forget. For the last&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"more-link-wrapper\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/2021\/10\/24\/seeing-my-fragile-self\/\">Continue Reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Seeing My Fragile Self<\/span> <i class=\"fas fa-angle-right\"><\/i><\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":4014,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[2,4,5,7],"tags":[273,320,450,468,513,529,708,756],"class_list":["post-2455","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-accessibility","category-education","category-employment","category-health","tag-eyesight","tag-glasses","tag-medical-emergencies","tag-minnesota","tag-pain","tag-pennsylvania","tag-texas","tag-visual-thinking","entry"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/5\/2023\/12\/Podcast-HD-1920x1080-comp-scaled.jpg?fit=2560%2C1440&ssl=1","jetpack-related-posts":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pfivLC-DB","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2455","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/7"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2455"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2455\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3521,"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2455\/revisions\/3521"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/4014"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2455"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2455"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tameri.com\/autisticme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2455"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}