I love my wife, my cats, my family… but I wish I knew how to sound and act nicer. I can be curt, rude, blunt, or whatever else you want to call it. I would like to sound much nicer to the people about whom I care most.<\/p>\n
(Tangent: The editor in me forced a rewrite of “people I care most about” even though I know it is a silly compulsion to move a preposition.)<\/p>\n
I want to be mellow<\/strong>. I long to be a calming voice, not the loud, nervous, anxious person I am at times. Especially when I don’t feel well, I can be a real jerk.<\/p>\n No idea how I can change when I’ve wanted to be different most of my life. One minor thing goes wrong and I can’t relax for hours or even days. It’s not fair to anyone else.<\/p>\n I dislike me, and that\u2019s not an easy way to exist.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I love my wife, my cats, my family… but I wish I knew how to sound and act nicer. I can be curt, rude, blunt, or whatever else you want to call it. I would like to sound much nicer to the people about whom I care most. (Tangent: The…<\/p>\n