Only 16 Days Remain

Last updated on July 26, 2026

Countdown is 16 days.

At this point, one finishes “just because” and for no other reason or purpose. After May, I hope — more than anything — to never set foot on campus again for any reason. I’ll even switch medical specialists if I can, to avoid being near campus. I literally feel sick when I’m near the university… I despise it that much.

My four years at the University of Minnesota nearly destroyed me. Another difficult educational experience marked by intolerance for my differences.

I’m broken, flawed, deficient, inferior. That was made clear throughout this journey.

No, I don’t have a job offer, but is that surprising without a faculty mentor? I built no network of contacts. Even my original advisor didn’t want me.

I’m difficult. Too literal. too rigid. Not social enough. I don’t even smile enough for some faculty.

I believed, I had to believe, that this would be a reset for us. I will fall victim to this hope again. That predictable cycle… I’m Sisyphus.

Please, let me be free in 16 days. Free of the university and free of my self delusions.